The Melancholy Korean

Just because you don’t write back means nothing. I can write to you. As long as you let me do that. My God. If ever I find out you’re deleting my emails, I swear. If you haven’t been reading, this whole time...

I write only for you.  Do you understand now?  They mean nothing to me. The other girls mean nothing to me.  No one can ever mean anything to me ever again.  My universe has become a desolate wasteland. But I don’t care. I’ll wander in this desert forever.

There is one flower.  The memory of your image. 

You never answered my question. You left without answering my question, when you walked out that door, you didn't even say goodbye.  Even strangers deserve better.  But I don't care.  I know that now. I would rather be alone than with someone else.  I have to be alone, if I can't be with you.  I can't pretend.  You know I've always been a bad liar.

Please understand.  I'm not crazy.  How can you ask me to eat bread alone, when I've tasted nectar and ambrosia?  How can I go back home and pretend nothing has happened, that I have not treated with the immortal gods in their kingdom on Olympus? 

Without you, I am an accoutant, a broker, a diplomat, a lawyer.  Without you, I am married, happily, with sons and daughters whom I love dearly and a wife I can make happy. I am an upstanding citizen, pillar of his community, respectable leader and loyal friend. 

But I would give it all up.  Let the Evil One tempt me with all the realms and kingdoms of the world.  I scoff at the offer.  I laugh in his face.  Doesn't he undersand?  I would give it all up for one more day with you.

Kitty.  Dear, sweet Kitty.  Do you understand? I am a Knight.  A Knight without his Lady is nothing.